i dont care if u never listen to me ever again just let me be ur internet dad for just one second: dont start cutting yourselves please ever
ok im gonna reblog this again bc i want more ppl to see it?? ive compiled a (by no means complete) list of the things u can expect if u start:
– u cant stop. its a legitimate addiction. there is no ‘seeing what its like’. its soso hard to stop it and believe me, because that was me. i thought i would sate my curiosity but all i did was make my life miserable
– everything can become a trigger. someone carved things in a table?? trigger. u get a scratch by accident?? trigger. see something sharp?? yup.
– the scars dont go away and if people see them (and no matter how hard you try, people will see them) they get this awful fucking look on their face like a mixture of disgust and horror and pity
– u have to sit through people making shitty fucking jokes and calling people like you (real, struggling people like you) edgy emos looking for attention and it makes you feel sick but you have to sit there silently
– in fact, any conversation about self harm becomes thoroughly uncomfortable because they’ll talk about it like no one in the room has ever gone through it (or, if they know, they’ll glance at you out the corner of their eye when they think you cant see)
– any emotion can give you the urges- not just negative. ur body associates the happy feeling with the pain so ur brain is like ‘????? u cant have one without the other??’
– it can have been years. years. you can have stopped and got better and you’ll still feel the urge to hurt yourself and it makes you feel like you haven’t improved at all and you’re still fourteen and hating yourself
– (maybe this is just me) but some part of you misses it?? you stopped and you know its horrific but its so difficult to get rid of your blades or whatever you use because you feel so weirdly attached to these things that are so awful and you dont even know whygod damn i just want yall to understand that you dont have to hurt yourself ever, okay?? just. don’t. trust me.
I will reblog this every single day.
Its a bit too late for me, but not for someone else. Please don’t do it. Its a dumb thing to do and you will regret it.
I will never hesitate to reblog this
This is why I promised myself I’d never self harm. This post, right here. I hope it helps others make the same promise.
seriously, if you’re thinking of starting…don’t.
This applies to other forms of purposeful self harm too. I never cut but I bruised myself, gave myself minor burns, bit, scratched, and deprived myself of sleep and food or got too much sleep or food. Forms of harm that don’t leave physical scars forever but have similar mental effects.
It’s been roughly four years since I quit and I still get the urge to bite my hands and slam myself into door frames whenever I feel the slightest bit self conscious, sad, or anxious. Which is a lot of the time. I have to be careful scratching an itch or choosing reasons to stay up late or making decisions about eating. The slight calm numb feeling you get isn’t nearly worth it and yet you end up craving it anyways. It feels like an easy way out even though ultimately it’s causing way more harm than good.
Just don’t do it. Ever.
This is so real. I’ve stopped for two years and had a rough night and nearly gave in to my urges to cut myself. Again. After two years.
thank you so so much op for making this because this is one of the most honest and important things i’ve ever seen on here. there is literally no way to stress this enough, any of it. trying to resolve one moment of anger or sadness or self-hate by condemning yourself to a lifetime of never being able to fully cover is NOT worth it. most people know self-harming is bad and dangerous and unhealthy, but they don’t seem to know this stuff about it. any addiction is a life sentence, and sometimes it only takes once. please don’t do this to yourself.
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